Love?

Love?

Love is the feeling you get when there is some one you really
care about, whether it be your family or the person you want to spend the rest
of your life with. Love is what we as humans strive for, it’s the next step
towards happiness. Love is something you always want and something you never
want to lose. But what happens when you lose the one you love, the one you lived
for, the one you swore would never leave you? You go into depression or you move
on and find another love.

But what happens when you lose the man you wanted to marry, to
have kids with. You die. You lose your heart, you lose the desire to live. You
want to move on but it seems impossible when you still love him more than
anything else. It’s as if there is a huge whole in your chest and you feel like
it’s never going to be filled again. Then there is the longing to hate him
because he ripped your heart out, but the inability to do so because you still
love him. As well as the wanting him back but knowing he isn’t coming back
because he was able to move on. Then your left there wondering why do you still
love him? Did he ever love me? Will I ever love again? Wondering if that empty
feeling in your chest will ever stop. Wondering if you will ever stop loving
him. Then all you can say is help and try to get over him as best you can, even
if it never helps, even if it feels like it’ll never happen. Wondering if he
will ever come back to you, hoping he dose but almost knowing he
won't.